you're the reason I believe in love...

~FOREVER AND ALWAYS BABY~

Well,this all started off in 2007 :) my final year in SMK Datuk Peter Mojuntin. Form 6 is quite depressing. Hey,don't ask me why I've entered Form 6 based on my previous sentence..hehe..I entered form 6 is just because I have no where to go!~ Dont get me wrong..I do have somewhere to go..and to be exact...KEDAH! well..it's not as thrilling as it sound but the course that was offered to me was my dream..well..ONCE..:) For me ~being a Law student would make my life even more perfect..but,families are the reasons why I am still here. However,I don't even regret..cause I did well in my STPM's..and the same year I met my Fiance~Gabriel..things happen for reason ayy...:) you know how they say you can meet people in the strangest and most unpexpected place..well,here's my story. It was about few months before my final exam,me and my cuzzies were having our dinner at this chinese restaurant called "Ching Fah". He walked into my sight and suprisingly! He's my cousin's 2nd cousin! haha..confused? oke..this cousin of mine which is also his cousin is our heavenly match maker..he's related to my cousin through mom's..and that makes me on the father's side..so were off from connected to each other then!~ What could have been more amazing and nervously coincidental at the same time..he sat in front of me ( not much of a big deal, but at the time..it was~trust me ) talked,and smiled to him...first impression?? he's LOUD!! yeshh..LOUDDD!!~ he spoke kadazan? wowiee!! definitely a PLUS!! went home and my cousin's just kept teasing me..goshh..and yeahh..they even get me his phone number....impressed? picture me in! so.why waste the effort?? :D we kept messaging and messaging and messaging........and realized we do have something in common...(walawehh...) hehe..sadly,we do face some problems and lost contact for few months. Met him again (and once again..thanks to my cuzzie!!) but this time it's a bit different..we learned get more clean to each other..apparently it turned out well..:) dated for few months and later that month..relationship are getting serious..he asked me to be his Girlfriend! my stomach ache so bad,and those butterflies were makin it worse...did I said Yes? Heaven yeahh!! Look where did it brought me today..blogging about the history between us!~ Beautiful..but trust me..I have a lot more to tell..but..I just insert the important moments. This Love has dragged me here..and I'm thankful to God for the each and everyday that I've experienced..! Love is weird..but once you find that someone...it turned out to be LOVE~ :D

Put in the EFFORT~

AT THE HEART of the matter, it seems the effort put into romance is more important than the act itself. I wonder why~ As the oft-quoted adage states: It's the thought that counts! It's about continuing to invest in keeping the relationship rich and intresting I guess..=_=". I honestly do that in the beginning. It's as if like we seek one-on-one time with each other..goshh..we are intensely curious about person's life and how their day was. As time goes on,I tend to stop doing that...and I'm fully aware that it can lead to emotional distance. I guess I have to put an Effort in this relationship but talking to him nowadays just making me feel grumpier..ughh! I sure need a LOTS of coffee!!!~ :)

COFFEE IS GOOD FOR YOUR BRAIN!

enough studies have been done that we can say that drinking about half a litre of coffee a day could significantly decrease your risk of PARKINSON'S or ALZHEIMER'S disease. No-one is quite sure why, but the effect of cafeine seems substantial, whether it's in coffee,tea or soft drinks but warning for some people,too much cafeine may cause health problems. :)

~HAPPY SUNDAY~

Another brand new day! PRAISE the Lord for giving us the chance to serve another day...for all good things came from Him. Went to Mary Immaculate's Church this morning and suprisingly..the church is packed! welcoming a Priest from Pakistan, Rev.Fr Patrick Gill. He's totally amazed on how the fellow brothers and sisters of God could sit along with the family and be in such peace. "It's not the same in Pakistan I assume"...well, another reason why we should give praise and thanks to the Lord for He had given us such a blessing! attended Mass with my lovely parents,sister,bro in-law,fiance~Gabriel and Amanda-my niece. It's a great day for me for I met the love of my life ~Jesus. I just love to be in Church..The feelings is just extraordinary..! Met a couple of people too..Melissa~always gettin prettier...:) went for breakfast at TunG See Hai..Went back home afterwards..and here I am~Blogging. hehe...Everything's started to get better between me and him..a bit relief but i hope it would last a bit longer now for my brain and heart extremely needs a rest. Thanks for understanding baby. I need it..:') and yeah..THANK YOU LORD~

It all happened on the 1st Of June 2010~

~OUR ENGAGEMENT DAY~

We are a little weird

And life's a little weird

And then when you find someone whose weirdness is compatible with yours

You join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness

And call it LOVE~

Congratulations to two very special weirdos.. ^_^

Simeon Gabriel & ME!~

CELEBRATE A NEW BEGINNING

HOPE COMES FROM LOVING

AND LOVING FROM FAMILY AND FRIENDS

TRAVELLING THE DISTANCE

TO WHERE THE NEW LIFE BEGINS

THANK YOU FOR COMING TO SHARE OUR DAY

KNOW THAT YOUR PRESENCE IS DEEPLY FELT IN EVERY WAY

MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

~RAMONA & GABRIEL~

| My life without you |

Your name is like a scar in my heart
That wont seem to heal
it's as if my world has gone numb
And happiness isn't real

it's as if my world has gone cold
and dying is a temptation
it's as if my life is no longer a part of me
and living is not a sensation

it's as if the seasons never change
and everything is grey
it's as if this laptop's button
knows i'm not okay

it's as if like the light that filled my room
is replaced with danger and sadness
it's as if my mind that used to be filled with hope
is only now filled with sorrow

some may call this depression
and some may call this the blues
But this is what I call
~My Life without You~

~Ramona

well...at least I tried~ :')

Tried to talk to him just now..just hoping for the best for us.nothin much,nothin less. We started with some silly stuff but then I realize topics are gettin way too much for me. I can't blame him at all..I've tried to lowered down my ego but I guess It's not as easy as it looks. Almost teared up but tried my best not to show it. Oh my~ this is just too painful. I love Him dear God..and I pray that everything will be fix..God..hear my prayers. Amen.

Gravity By Sara Bareilles~

This song really tells the way I feel right now.

something always brings me back to you

it never takes too long

no matter what I say or do

I'll still feel you here til' the moment I'm gone

You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much
than to drown in your Love and not feel your rain

CHO*
Set me free
Leave me be
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity
here I am and I stand so tall
Just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me
all over me

You loved me cause I'm fragile
When I thought that I was strong
But you touch me for a little while
and all my fragile strength is gone

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see
that you're everything I think I need here on the ground
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me Down~

Dear Ramona

well..today is a very boring day for me..stayed at home most of the time. Watching the rain as it falls literally teared me up inside. Im not sure to whom should i seek for happiness..=_=" its been a while since I laughed my heart out...and it brings me into this moment where i missed my cousins n my bestest friend,Gwen. I have a lot of things to share but i guess walls and teddy bears are my only hope for companion..sigh~ what can i do to make it right? I just wish that he could understand. I wish.:'(